Been a few weeks, nothing much changed. Kids and I went to the zoo and a football game this weekend. We had a great time, then it’s time for them to go back and it always makes me sad. They tell me about life with mom and it’s miserable. She is on her phone from the moment she gets up until bedtime. She doesn’t nothing with them because she is too busy all the time. D8 told me this weekend “mom is always too busy for us. It really [censored].”
She has been omitting me from all things the kids are involved in and then the kids tell me about them afterwards. I finally called her on it for being a poor co-parent and excluding me. It was quite stern in tone and called her on a few things she’s said recently. Friday I get a text saying she needs me to get out of the truck and talk to her when I pick up the kids. Said she wanted to apologize. I declined as I didn’t feel like talking to her as she would just turn it around on me and blame me for why she isn’t communicating the kids events to me. Today I get a flurry of texts with baseball schedules, school events, my daughter is in a play next month, the school calendar, etc. I had none of that info before. I’m glad to have it so I can plan to go to things now.
Off to bed, another busy work week ahead. I hope this cycle of exhaustion ends when I transfer to a new command next fall. I’ve got to be aging faster than ever before in my life. Burning the candle at both ends trying to hold life together.
Me40; W38; S12; D9 BD11/19/2018 D filed 12/20/18 D Final 7/2020 Being the best example I know how for my kids to see.
