It’s going ok. I was really sad the first few days but I feel I’m starting to feel good about myself. There’s no treading on eggshells and I can be me. I can breathe.
He came to babysit while I went to a school reunion and I stayed out at a hotel. New outfit, new makeup and I felt great. I could tell he hated it and tried to get me into bed the minute I got home. I resisted. I Feel like he’s doing this as he doesn’t want anyone else to have me not because he necessarily wants me himself.
The only problem I’m having is that he texts everyday asking how the kids are or phones or comes round whereas I don’t want him to. Hes got a foot in each camp and so space isn’t being given a chance.
He said “are you ok?” So I responded “yes I’m really good thanks” to which he replied “well I’m not so you can’t be”.
But you know what. I absolutely am, I’ve moved out of acting and I’m genuinely ok. I have hope for my future, new goals and dreams and love. Whether that be with H or not. And I’m excited!
