Let's face it, she's a confused bunny and can't figure out what she truly wants. She wants her fun and yet, she wants you right where she left you in case things don't work out. Evidently, she's not ready to pull the plug on the marriage and maybe she's not hearing what she wants to hear from the mediators either.
I hope she gets herself together, but this might be a long haul for you since she's not ready to file. You sound great. You will need to know when you are ready to end it officially...until then, continue as you have been.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
