Not sure what to do after ILYBNILWY

[ovrrnbw]

So her being home was probably more for her convenience than being home with me.

Probably.

But this is where you need to 180. You need to be the one she is worrying about.

She told me have a good time, I was hoping she would seem interested in who I was with and what I was doing when I got home, but she said nothing.

Doesn't mean she wasn't interested. Give it time, her interest may grow.

Sometimes I feel like with my silence about everything, it will make her think I agree with everything she said that day and I'm done with us too. I'm sure that's not the case and I'm trying to ride this out, it's just hard holding back talking it out.

That may be a good thing if she wonders that. You also show her that you have heard and understood her.

Not sure if I have the stamina for a marathon, but I guess thats my price to pay for the years of neglect and lack of intimacy she went through. It hurts me to think of her feeling even a fraction of what I feel now over those years.

Nobody knows how much they really have, or what they are truly made of, until they are put to the test. It's a mental test. Mental pushes are the hardest things you can experience and offer the most room for personal growth and achievement.

I agree with R2C on the anniversary. It [censored] but you can't bring it up IMO.