Things have been going great with my wife. August was a complete turn around. The signs of depression lifted almost completely, we are talking again, she looks at me with desire, we sit up late and have drinks chatting about things. During these times she has opened up a little bit. She tells me about about trying to understand her immigrant parents and how they raised her, she is trying to accept their perspective. I knew that it was her Mom's cancer 4 years ago that set this whole thing off, unfortunately she fully believes she will get cancer, its just a matter of when and what type. She explains how she appreciates her job, the time off and $ but is completely bored with it. She talks about the future a bit with our family which gives me hope that she's not running away anytime soon. Her twice divorced friend life is in shambles because of the MLC she is going through. My wife is watching the train wreck happen. She was regularly going to therapy but I'm worried the sessions have ran out even though we have insurance to cover a lot more.
She is treating me completely differently, going out of her way to be nicer, better. She bought me an entire new wardrobe which I like but I feel like she did it to manage some financial spending guilt.
I am very happy with the way things are improving but I fully know it is nowhere near being over. I honestly think she is still in replay, the only difference is I am now along for the ride as a friend and not an enemy. She stills wants to party with younger people, she wants more tattoos, she's bored with her job, she wants to live life like a rebel teenager and not worry about responsibilities. I have been very supportive and understanding. I am letting her go at her speed with no pressure.
It's weird to have the relationship we currently have. We walk and talk like a married couple but she hasn't wanted to talk about us. No "i love you", holding hands, kissing etc. Part of me feels like she is scared to go there because it will be a moment she has to come to terms with everything that has happened.
Regardless, it's is so awesome to not walk on egg shells 24/7. We have been having sex more than ever. We are enjoying each others company again. It's been 7 months since BD and I am currently treating this like she is still in replay. My wife is a teenager right now, all I can do is ride this with her as a friend and not an enemy. I hope one day she comes to terms with her issues and can settle down as my wife, but for now "Patience" is my motto.
