But what does moving on in this situation look like? Dating other people?
Moving on (to me) is that moment where you are playing with your kid and you forget. It's that moment when you sit alone in your living room and feel peace. In the beginning you have no moments like these. You can't eat, you drop 40 pounds, can't sleep, you think your life is over. Then you start to have moments. Fleeting but they are there. I haven't moved on but I believe that there will be a day when these moments will turn into hours, which turns into days, years until I look back and realize that I survived this. That I am stronger because of it. That I used this as an opportunity to grow and I will be proud. Today is not that day but it is coming I have to believe that.
On dating. I started talking to a guy I met online not long after WAH left. We talked/texted all day everyday nonstop. I could text him at any time and he'd reply. We'd stay up until 3am talking on the phone. He called me "baby" and was protective of me. He was making plans to visit me when I realized I was in way over my head. I was about to do something really stupid but thankfully he ended it saying I wasn't ready for a relationship (duh).
.......and then I crashed. Now I'm missing not one but TWO men. I made the mistake of not blocking him and 2 weeks later he came back. Ugh. We picked up right where we left off and a week later he started pulling away again. Seriously? Talked to him on the phone for 2 hours then I went home and blocked him. Took me another week to pull out of it. Its been a couple of months and I still miss him. Sound like fun?
Moral of my story is dating isn't moving on its a drug, a distraction, an avoidance technique, and a whole bunch of drama that totally isn't worth it. Don't be me.
