After a couple of teary moments I got my act back together pretty quickly luckily.
H has said again he’s moving next week. I gave my usual responses. He brings it up after seeing the ow every time. He has said some odd things over the past few days. “I do still love you but we can’t work because (insert a lame reason)” however this is very different to the ILYBNILWY I constantly got at first. And also that he still finds me insanely attractive and cares about me but isn’t prepared to be miserable with me anymore. I just listened and validated but he hates that and wants me to tell him how I feel.
Then yesterday he actually came out with “it’s making me really sad that you aren’t crying about me leaving or fighting for me to stay. Why are you happy when I’m about to leave our 14 year relationship” I did not know what to say to this as it took me by surprise. I just said “I will be sad if you leave but understand”. Then he spoke for 15 minutes on how he felt and how I’m not fighting or telling him how I feel....I told him how I feel weeks ago and he knows I think but says I have no emotions or meaning etc I can’t win right now!
Trying to lay low and work on me while the ow gives the pressure. Plus I got a promotion at work this week so I have been super happy!
