I cheated, we survived, now my wife's cheating

[JC08]

I´m the WWH in my story. I felt for OW what you felt for yours. Made the same mistakes, said the same things, felt the same feelings. The soul mate fog. All limerance fueled. I saw the light of my W and I was able to take the road home. I´m there now. And I´m also here. I survived waywardness when I found this forum. People here is pure gold.

I wish I didn't have the knowledge to understand what she is feeling and going through, but sadly I do. I didn't know what limerance was until after her thing started. Its like a script to my affair and to hers. She has became such a incredibly different person in such a short time, the same as I did. It is such a powerful influence on everything you do. I remember her to begging and pleading to give her a chance to fix our marriage when I was in my affair, it did it just pushed me away more, it just made my heart harder towards her.

So as I navigate this time period I try to remember how I felt, how I acted, how even in the beginning of my affair I only seen the happiness, I only felt that high, I couldn't see what I was going to lose, what I had, What I would do to my wife and children, I was just selfish but somehow felt justified. I try to keep this in mind though that I came out of the fog, I seen reality, I remembered the love for my wife.

There was a long period of time during my affair that if my wife would have walked away I wouldn't have cared, I was so sure this OW was the one, I was so sure my wife didn't love me, I was just so sure. Once I came back out of orbit and into reality I fell so deeply in love with my wife, it seriously felt like we had the marriage we both always wanted. we didn't fight or argue for months, we communicated, we shared, we resolved, we had fun, we put our marriage front and center. Makes where we are now hurt a little more, but only I can control my emotions and actions moving forward.

Thanks for all the replies.