Ugh. Feeling major regret over the way I handled the D talk last night. That was an opportunity to show that I will be fine regardless and to not engage in R talk and I failed. I’m glad and proud that I stayed calm and didn’t get angry or tearful or emotional at all, but I did say too much and let him know I still have hope for our M. I am SO bad at sticking to DB in those moments when it counts the most. He even said he doesn’t miss me. A very unkind thing to say. And very telling. I do feel good about my progress in controlling my emotions. But I’ve probably done a lot of damage to my DB efforts and I don’t feel good about that.
