Dear Dnj Thank you so much for your kindness. I’m trying to get to the other side. I never disclose before the fact that I was still wearing my wedding ring, meant something, the touch, the sight gave me sometimes the hope, the strength. One of my fears the day of the TIA was loosing consciousness and waking up not being me, my fear is:was artificial life. On my way to the hospital I call H to meet me there. He showed up, he looked bother rather than worried. The monitor was showing 190 over some crazy number, at that moment he decided to be appropriate to repeat the information that he’s in love with this woman. I kept my hand over my forehead, he didn’t got any answer from me. When he went there the second time I asked him to please let him self out. Took me 72 hours for me to digest what had happened to me and the unjust vile action . I called him few days after, I spoke with him , I let him know how much I adored him, I told him that he was always be part of my life but the only way for me to move forward wasn’t about fixing the past, he is my past. While on the phone I took the ring out, put it in a drawer. I will always be in love with the person who doesn’t exist anymore, even if by some miracle he will be able to see all the damage he caused I can’t see him as part of my family in any shape or form.
