What a scary time that must have been. Wow, those are some high blood pressure numbers. Stress is serious stuff. I’m glad you’re on medication and taking it slower.
The human body is indeed an amazing machine. And the mind is incredible; affecting everything.
Originally Posted by Barranco
Lately I’m trying not to be a sob story but I’m failing miserably.
It’s ok. We all cycle and spin. They become less frequent and the depth lessens.
You have to go through these feelings and low points - hopefully a lot less stressfully. (((Hugs)))
Realize, you are not a sob story and not failing. Seriously! You are doing fine.
Your story has joyful times, like your birthday; and will have sad times as well. It is ok. It is normal. You need to feel that, and walk through it.
Feel sad, acknowledge it, work through it, and let it go. This does take time. That is not a sign of failing, it is a sign of healing.
I want you to think about this: Everything here, all the advice, the counterintuitive suggestions - it is all for you. Barranco is the most important person in this situation. You need to be healthy for you, and then others.
The stress you are causing yourself over H and his behaviour - He is not worth it. A concept and belief that takes some time to discover. Do not stress out over what H is doing, focus on you.
This absolutely gets better. Honest.
DnJ
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
