PJ came into your life to show you that you can adjust and love cats. PJ will live on in your heart and I do believe he opened the door for those two adorable kitties to have a nice, loving home. Enjoy them for they will love you unconditionally.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.