Divorce because I betrayed her trust - THREAD 2

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I went fairly deep as I relied on it as escapism from my problems that I should have addressed a long time ago. I'm addressing them now.
It wasn't affecting work (never looked at work) - only ever in my own time at home.

I should have stopped at simply 'looking' or 'curiosity'. It then spiralled. Unfortunately this spiralling happened at the same time as a lovely relationship with a great woman.

She is absolutely not perfect. She is a hypochondriac, stubborn, and she smokes when she is drunk which I really hate, but when I say I don't like that she smokes she just says "well I can do what I want." (it's not regular that's what annoys me. It's infrequent - I just think "well just don't do it then!").
I think it was a rebelling thing - she started smoking socially at college, abotu age 19/20, and she admits it was to rebel against her parents' staunch Christian upbringing. She certainly has issues but refuses therapy of any sort.

Yes wrecking both our lives over this. And I've stopped, and GALing instead.