Not willing to quit

[Turbine]

Happiness has to be found within yourself. Yet I am still very much hing up on remaining with her.
I dreamed about her last night. Okay after I dozed off again. This 2 am stuff is getting so old. I can't make her happy. I would like to provide times where we can be happy together. I am happy with her. Or was. I want to have that chance to know. Kids are saying she has never been what I thought. Which is criticism of a choice I made. Not Happy about that.

I can't afford a lawyer anymore. Would have been better to just pay some of the debt.

So yes I am still very annoyed with this whole thing. My part, my inability or lack of desire to move on. You have no idea how much I despise that whole phrase. Her, not responding or even being civil in dealing with the house.

Am I calmer and better than i was over a year ago? Perhaps. Right now I am going to get ready and walk three miles to get to the repair shop and see if they might have a loaner for today. At the very least update them as to why it is back again.