Divorce because I betrayed her trust - THREAD 2

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For GAL I've signed up to local gym (starting in a few days), exercising at home too, hobbies at home, walking, speaking to friends that I haven't spoken to in a while.
Also have had a few day trips to London to see things (concerts, comedy etc.) on my own. Takes my mind off the situation. Might do more of that soon.
At work I'm doing exams (accountancy) and waiting on results for my last one. Hopefully that means a pay rise!

Yes I have remorse for not reaching out for help - she even said "If you had done it in private and sorted yourself out and didn't tell me, everything would have been fine and I would never have known." But because of the nature of my addiction I was ashamed to tell anyone - friends/family etc. I have expressed to her my remorse and regret that I never sought help.

My W is still really important to me. I don't hate her, and I haven't stopped loving her. I am just sad that she is so hardened that she feels it's ok to chuck the last 8 years away.