Thanks for bringing me back to the issue which I think I was distracted from. You are right on the part about the crux being her wanting to leave and not the other stuffs. I am a bit confused by her behaviour recently as well thus perhaps subconsciously grew hope and allowed the stabbing.
Example previously I had told her I will stop going over her place for the weekly dinner with her family. Because within me, I feel that if I go over, she would react a day or two later with some stabbing when things seems to somewhat resume to family quo. But not every week, she will ask me if I will be going over even though I told her I would not be anymore. I am not sure if it was my mother in law asking her to invite me weekly but we’ll she could just tell her mum no I am no longer coming?
And recently, she started doing some stuffs that she never did ever since the sitch started. Like suddenly one day she was cooking for my parents, and another day she suddenly handed my parents some gifts and such. Thus I am kinda confuse by her behaviour. She will still tend to be very close with my family members, cousins, aunts and such even though previously she had been avoiding gathering sessions with them. And seems like she is only out to draw blood from me once I let my guard down about from my detachment. Scheme of a waw?
Should I see these signs as something positive or jus ignore it? Actually one think I am always curious about is, what are the signs if she is coming back and how do I react from there?
M:38 W:38 T:14 M: 12 S:9 S:6 BD: 07/18 W Moved out: 5/19 W Moved in: 7/19 D draft received: 12/19