Steve, I just realized that my last post might seem out of context. I had not caught up on the last 30 days when I responded. I see I was correct.
You went into mourning and the typical stages. I remember the sense of heightened clarity back during my BDs. Followed by sadness. Sound familiar?
Stop blaming yourself. I believe you did the work. She obviously did not.
Boundaries buddy, boundaries.
M 53 W 54, M since 98 D15, D19 8/2013 discovered EA, W maintained contact with OM until 10/14 7/2/17 W said she wanted S, 7/25/17 moved out of MBR 12/17 W says moving out 5/18, W still in home.