First I want to say I think you need to change up your mornings. Do you run? If not you should start. I just came back from a run and guess who I ended up passing? My ex and I playfully pushed her off the path in my the grass and she laughed. I’m 13 months past D and I still miss the family unit sometimes and guess what I bet she does too. I’m not going to let that ruin the rest of my life.
Where you’re going to get yourself into trouble and probably end up here again because you won’t take the time to understand women. We told you 100 times that this is how she feels right now. She will miss them down the road when the newness wears off. You don’t get a gold star for not beating or cheating there is so much more then that including understanding her feelings.
99% of the WW do not veer off the path once you get here so your case isn’t special.