Quick update. Today was back to being a bit awkward. She was withdrawn. She has been staying busy with housework. I have been keeping busy, doing some stuff I needed to do. She has purposely been keeping her phone in the family room, plugged in and doesn't carry it with her. She went for a walk on the property, so I ran up to get some ethanol-free gas for the lawn equipment. I got the oil changed in her car (it was due) while I was out. (sorry LH, that will probably not make you happy, but chapter 2 of The Love Dare is to be kind. The challenge is to do something kind for your spouse.)

I got back and took a nap. (Amusement parks are exhausting at 50!) When I got up she still wasn't back. I got a little worried. I do not think she would engage in self-harm, but you never know. So I got some outside clothes on and went to walk the property to look for her. She was out pulling the weeds in the bushes in front of the house. I had bought bags of mulch for there that were just sitting waiting for the weeds to be pulled to put down. So when she would finish a section I would put mulch down. Conversation was mostly light, nothing deep. But it was enjoyable. It was as if for 45 minutes nothing was wrong! We talked a little bit about upping our bible study game. We are going to start doing our sunday school lessons together. We got the bushes bed weeded and mulched, and cleaned everything up. It was awesome and therapeutic. For the first time since Sunday when I found the emails I feel like I could be emotional. But I won't! I am a rock.

Last edited by Steve85; 08/30/19 09:40 PM.
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M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017
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