Divorce because I betrayed her trust - THREAD 2

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For GAL I'm talking to friends that I've not made effort to stay in touch with lately. Mostly talking on FB messenger or text as they live far away, but it's nice to speak to them. They are of course asking for updates on my situation and they're sad and basically on my side even if I am the one who caused my W's pain, and she isn't cheating or having a MLC.

I'm having a few days out by myself. I have gone to a TV recording for a comedy show, and a few orchestral concerts in London (going again on Saturday - might go earlier so I can have a few hours shopping and walking in parks).
I am a musician and I write/arrange music so have been just creating projects for myself to work on. So I'd get to my parents' house after work, relax, have dinner, watch TV, exercise, then do a bit of project work. Then watch some comedy on TV then bed. That's working.

I think going to the gym will also help. I've always been scared of going to a gym (NGS) - just the fear of other more 'alpha' guys thinking snide comments about my scrawny frame and how I'll be here a while before any results happen (!). But actually, you know what? I've learned quickly from IC that it doesn't matter. They're not thinking about me. They're just thinking about themselves. So I'm learning to leave those thoughts behind.