#14 Here we go again

[SteveLW]

Thanks LB55. It agree that you have to proceed with the gut check in helping or harming your sitch.

I found it very difficult to come home from work yesterday. I ended up taking a long scenic route home. The drive to midweek Bible study was very awkward. D16 even asked why we were so quiet on the way home. W is back to edge of the bed sleeping. She has withdrawn any and all affection. Didn't even say hi when I arrived home from work. I greeted her briefly but didn't want to belabor it so just went on with my normal routine until time to leave for Bible study. It feels as if she is back to post BD Jan. 2018. I've been remaining even, upbeat. Pleased. Confident. But I've also gone back to following Sandi's rules.

She tends to be doing what she feels she needs to in order to save the MR. Again IC will be interesting as she is notoriously terrible at follow through on things like that. But I'm getting the feeling her heart isn't into it.

LB it is crazy how quickly things change. I am being the lighthouse. I'm standing alert waiting for her to turn to me. I'm not unkind, I'm just going to continue to be the best I can be. I can't really DB any better than I already am. I just have to be patient. Not my strong suit but something I'm much better at than I was 2 years ago.

I'm off for a day off riding rollercoasters! I probably won't be in the forum much today.

Thanks again everyone. Support here is great. So far the mornings are the worst. I have lots of irrational guilt and regrets in the morning.