Divorce because I betrayed her trust - I regret it

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After work, got into my parents' house and there was a letter for me.
It was the divorce petition.

Really hit me hard.

Not sure if it's different for US users, but in the UK the person requesting the filing must 'apply' online. THey have to give a broad reason (in this case "unreasonable behaivour") and then give 4-5 paragraphs of why.
So my wife described my porn addiction in detail and what I'd done. It was horrible. I cried as she laid out in cold typed words what I'd done. I felt sick.

I then hated myself. I had a brief thought of committing suicide (mainly as if I did, my W would get the life insurance money and could pay off the mortgage). But then I immediately snapped out of it - I thought of my parents, my sister, my friends.

I have 7 days to respond by entering an online code saying I agree with the divorce.

Horrible end to an otherwise ok day.