Had brief interaction with her before I left for work. She's being a little more contrite than last night. Admitting that I've been "amazing". All I can think is that I'm not good enough in some way for her.

Last night she guessed how I knew. Asked me if I went into her email on her tablet. I responded with "Does that really matter?" I knew she would put it together. I segued this into telling her I should have insisted on full transparency after our sitch last year.

Oh I pointed out that she had looked it of the PC, and that was a red flag for me. She tried to insist she hasn't been logged into the PC since we moved. I calmly pointed out that wasn't true. That in fact I had gone on the PC in recent months and checked up on her. Even told her one thing I had found that was very innocent. But to let her know it had been open for a longtime.

This morning she said she is going to open everything up for transparency. I can see her going through the stages. Last night was denial and anger. This morning grief and sadness, moving into acceptance. I've told her to use the HSA and schedule therapy. She hasn't committed to that yet, and frankly I don't trust her follow through on that. We'll see.

M(53), W(54),D(19)
M-23, T-25 Bomb Drop - Dec.23, 2017
Ring and Piecing since March 2018