So good to see you posting. I truly admire (and envy) your strength. It seems to come naturally to you and I want to be in that place you are in. Full of self esteem and worthiness. And quite rightly.
I know I am strong, but it is a huge physical and mental effort. The self esteem and worthiness are lacking. I'm not sure how to fix those but maybe time will help.
I took a leaf out of your book. Booked a solo trip to Africa!! I join a tour group but it's not called 'intrepid tours' for nothing.
Anyway, it's good to hear from you. We missed you.