Thank you Unchien! I was proud of myself for being able to handle it so well despite being super triggered. Didn’t hear from H all day, then a couple of hours ago he texted to let me know he thinks he has the flu, so he’ll let me know tomorrow if he is well enough to come see D4. He says he doesn’t want to get us sick. On the one hand, I CAN NOT risk getting sick. As an at home single parent that would be disastrous. Obviously don’t want D4 to get sick either. But I’d hate for her to not see him. And it’s irritating that he feels he can option to parent or not when he’s sick. Guess who takes care of D4 when I don’t feel well? Me.
I am not doing well with detachment (in case that wasn’t glaringly obvious). My anxiety has been at an all time high, I’ve been sad and crying a ton again, and really missing H. I wish I didn’t feel this way again, but I do. As far as interactions with H I think I’ve been handling them all well lately. But I wonder if my real feelings show though and if I reek of desperation...
