I think she was horny and trying to figure out how she may feel. There was no kissing at all.
Ok calm and balanced. Got it. She was just complaining about her shoulder and I started rubbing it. Without asking. And she liked it and one thing led to another. Yesterday afternoon I tried it and she gave no positive signs. Even recoiled slightly so I backed off in a hurry. But I didn’t get in a bad mood or nothing.
I don’t let her mood affect me. At all. I’ve got to that point and it feels nice. She seemed very conflicted after the ML yesterday. One minute flirting with me. The next a little put off. Back and forth most of the day. This morning it’s all good mood and being funny. I’m just letting it all roll off my back and not getting pulled in.
You can probably guess that after the ML yesterday morning I was very happy. I knew not to read into it and used my run to temper my feelings. I was unsure if I should have been more affectionate afterwards but I think I made the right choice.
She has shown no disrespect at all. In private or in front of company. She is nice and considerate and respectful of me There is only the msging thing which who knows. I’m not concerning myself with it because I can’t do anything about it. I’m just working on me.
Yesterday was awkward as a whole. She brought up the past a couple times. She said something about how I didn’t take care of myself the last 10 years but acknowledged how I am now. I just listened and validated
I can tell you I’m ver glad we didn’t have sex a month ago. I wasn’t in a place where I could have not read into it and I would have went off the deep end.
She seems very cheery today. Flirty. It’s an amazing day outside. I think I will throw the frisbee with the dogs and S this afternoon maybe W wants to go
FYI. W is in constant pain. Back mostly. We have spent thousands in doctors and specialists. None can come up with concrete answer. So sex life has had lots of ups and downs. She usually initiated prolly 80% of the time
PS she has started complimenting me on my looks again. That feels nice. (Again not reading into it. I’m prepared for her to up and serve me papers tomorrow).
