Divorce and Acceptance Part 4

[Pax_luv]

Took me a little bit to get back to center, but I’m mostly back. Thank you all for being the voice of reason. I desperately needed the input. Sometimes I need to lean on others to give me a reality check. I do still get sucked into his vortex sometimes.
My lawyer and I talked and he came up with our proposal which is VASTLY different and not on par with the direction ex wanted to go in so I do suspect it will all get settled out during the mandatory settlement. We haven’t submitted it yet because my lawyer and I need to talk through some items.... he was incredibly fair and to the book. Which is good. There’s literally not one cent over what it should be and zero inflated line items etc. I’m ok with it because it’s reall... so we’ll see what happens.

Anyway, I am feeling about 2 inches tall right now. And I’m sad/ hurt. When I Picked up my dog, ex was having a party and the women looked like they were straight out of real housewives of San Diego. Skinny, glam blondes like they were dressed for the race track or something. They were closer to his age so they’re older..... but they have me feeling like a teeny tiny woman. I know I’m nNot supposed to say it but it’s hard.... here’s little ole me trying to get by day to day. And there he is throwing parties with hot women and living it up. He even had my dog dressed up all cute. Wtf is that??? I’m the one that dresses my dog. Ok- I know my outlook isn’t very becoming but I’m gonna allow my self to feel low for a moment.