Listening to Stranglers "Skin Deep" and when he says stuff like "better watch out for the skin deep" or "Cause brother, you've only got 2 hands to lend" it seems like I am only now getting it.
Cant recall if I mentioned it in my previous texts with you, but man Trent Reznor has some great lyrics. Seems all of his songs are about being rejected. Some sparse lyrics.
======= "I just made you up to hurt myself"
"Sometimes It's just that nothing seems worth saving I can't watch her slip away I won't let you fall apart"
"None of this really matters Any more Yes I am alone But then again I always was As far back as I can tell I think maybe it's because Because you were never really real To begin with"
"That me that you know used to have feelings But the blood has stopped pumping and he's left to decay The me that you know is now made up of wires And even when I'm right with you I'm so far away"
"Nice and high and far apart Just like they said I built this place with broken parts Just like they said You chip away the old version of you You'd be surprised at what you can do I'm safe in here Irrelevant Just like they said My voice just echoes off these walls You feel me breathe I am watching you I see it all The many ways you can't get to me I see it all"
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OK, I may have gone down a dark place, but these songs give me hope. They help me rebuild my "circuitry" as NIN would put it.
B.D in December 2018 Physical Affairs discovered in April 2019 Divorced May 2019 H (me) 49 W (her) 29
