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Wow. Close to one year since I have been on the forums. Can’t say a lot has happened although a lot has changed.

To start, we have started “talking” again which means texting. He’s still out west and is still working and living there and has let me know he’s moving to the big city because he can now afford it. This means a sort of permanence to me but I could be wrong.

We talk everyday.

One of our puppies passed away recently and he came home for a week to say goodbye. I think it totally ripped his heart seeing our boy go the way he did. He was also taken aback by how he was affectionate with me, the way he used to be. I was too in a sense. But honestly, it didn’t surprise me too much. I think he realized that one cannot sweep unfinished business under a rug and pretend it’s gone like he did.

I started therapy last month. I took a month off of work to get my priorities in order. I started doing my art again...some days more than others. I’ve been out more this summer than ever. I’ve severed an unhealthy friendship recently. I’m shedding skin.

Just started work this week as a gradual return.

Our messages to each other are either very detailed and frequent or sparse and infrequent. Sometimes he won’t respond for hours. So I don’t either. We say good morning and goodnight to each other.

No divorce or even divorce talk as of yet.

Not sure if you guys have any feedback about what I should do next?