Divorce because I betrayed her trust - I regret it

[DaB35]

I'm usually very patient generally - it's my W who is the impatient impulsive one!

I am loving the No More Mr Nice Guy book. I've nearly finished it already.

I don't like how she is going all gung-ho on this, and I think she's thinking she can't turn back now as she would have told lots of people about what she's decided to do and doesn't want to appear weak. In reality I can't prove that and I don't want to ask her. I will simply carry on doing my thing and just keep moving forward.

I am finding it hard to not text her - I find myself looking at my phone every hour or so in case she's contacted me. I know, I know, I should stop that straight away. So I've taken my phone off my desk and stuck it in my bag so I can't see it.

She is still on my mind, but I'm not sure what the exact emotion is that I'm feeling. It's a weird mixture - love, loss, anger, frustration, remorse, affection. It's all churned up.