Divorce because I betrayed her trust - I regret it

[DaB35]

Journal

Had a nice day yesterday. Saw my sister and her husband and the dog. Had a drink in a pub on the way home with them. They said I was looking well and seem positive. That helped.

I woke up feeling angry with my W this morning. How quickly she's decided to end things. How I know she hasn't decided this on her own; she's been pushed by others. But I didn't dwell on that for more than a couple of minutes.
I turned my thoughts to something else. I got up earlier than usual, did 20mins exercise then went to work early.

I found out I passed one of my accountancy exams yesterday too. I just have to wait for 1 more result then I get some letters after my name.

I feel a little lighter this week. It's tough of course; I'm not downplaying how much my marriage meant to me. She is still so important to me. But at the same time, I'm doing my thing and getting on. I've not found myself wallowing in a dark room crying myself to sleep every night. I honestly thought I would be there. But I'm not.

I've decided that I will not text her at all whilst she is on holiday.