...the kind of woman who makes those positive lists
Well, I’m glad you aren’t going to go all narcissistic. Haha. I just hope you know there is a list of pretty fine qualities about you, and it is ok to knowledge them - every now and then.
Yes, I did read about your moonlight walk on Grace’s thread.
Bright moonlight shimmering, reflecting, off the calm water. Your skin aglow in the silver light. One on one time with God. That sounded like a special and lovely time.
I do remember that intense loneliness, and the struggles of being a single parent. As you well know, mine happened all in one night. Kind of like getting knocked out and when I came too I was alone, everything was chaos, and I had absolutely no help from my seemingly hours earlier loving spouse. Actually, it was just like that.
Gerda, you will get through this. Yeah, the single parent stuff is rough. And leads to some really wonderful moments and strong lifetime bonding with one’s kids.
That struggle to do all this on your own, I get it. Sometimes we just don’t have enough hours in the day. So, don’t sweat the small stuff. And the bigger stuff - you will figure it out. Just like building that bed. Boy oh boy, the stuff I’ve had to learn how to do. XW and I had our predominantly blue jobs and pink jobs around the house, now they are all purple jobs.
Your successful construction of D10’s bed, is great, and yes it is a victory. As the victories keep accumulating the struggle becomes less and less.
Coffee, tea, and Nanaimo bars, enjoyed with friends sounds great.
Originally Posted by Gerda
...while the grown-ups unpack the ghosts of MLC-past and build up visions of our futures for a couple of hours.
This had me thinking. It is really quite profound.
I realized my ghosts aren’t packed away anymore. They are always out. I’ve embraced them. Dared them to try to scare me. Hugged and held them in the full light. They aren’t even an annoyance anymore. Once in a while there is a faint boo, which withers pretty quickly. It is just the past, just life.
I can talk about XW, my situation, heck even met OM face to face, and go about my day.
I wonder when I unpacked my ghosts and chose not to pack them back away. Or did the ghosts just lose their scariness.
What a cool and strange realization, thanks for that.
DnJ
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.
