Divorce because I betrayed her trust - I regret it

[DaB35]

I do recognise that to outsiders reading this, it is shocking. I am ashamed of what I have done and to have hurt my W in this way.

I hate that I did it and never got help.

But, I am getting help now and it's WORKING. I have had no desire to look at any such sites for 3 months now and that is really helping me stay positive. I'm just getting into a state now where it doesn't even enter my head as a "well I could look, one little peek won't hurt anyone." I simply don't think about it.

Instead I read, catch up on my hobby (I write music and play), I talk to my mates on facebook or text (don't worry, I've hidden my W's profile!), exercise, go for walks, watch TV, help my sister walk her dog, etc.