Divorce because I betrayed her trust - I regret it

[DaB35]

I've decided not to send the letter.
But it felt good to write down how I felt. It's just on my computer. I want to try and memorise parts of it so that if we do end up getting into a discussion, I will be able to use some of what I've put in it to validate how she feels about everything.

We have both said how sad we are at the situation. (I hear an Elton John song in the background subtly there!).

I am being impatient, I realise that. If she does rethink and consider a R, I guess that will need to happen after divorce/house sale/split of assets/loss of some money. Just don't know how she can stand by and instigate this and wipe the slate clean in just 3 months. It feels too sudden.

Putting my musician's hat on - where romanticising everything and anything is the norm - she will be on holiday and miss me and reconsider. But we're not in a movie.

I am not going to text her at all whilst she is on holiday unless she contacts me. Right thing to do?