Divorce because I betrayed her trust - I regret it

[DaB35]

Guys I am LOST. This is why I'm doing all this. I am confused, panicking, and flailing about.

I just don't know what I'm supposed to do. I've only been married 3 years and now I've put myself and my dear W in this mess.

I want her to stop being so stubborn, and take a step back so she can see how much she is willing to simply chuck away, without even wanting to try to make things work.

Yes, I absolutely am aware of the hurt I've caused her. I'm nto denying it wasn't a serious issue. I have betrayed her trust. I regret it completely and am taking steps to overcome my problems.

The NMMNG book is great. Listening to it on Audible whilst I'm at work (on Lunch now).

I don't want this divorce. I want to try. She's given up. She doesn't want to let me show her what I've done so far to improve myself. The frustrating thing is that already I know I've improved. But she is kind of resigned. She is willingly putting herself in a financially unstable position for the next few years, and I want to be there to support her. I know she doesn't trust me but it's so tricky as we've been so close up til this point.