I’m really wondering how long I can do this. It’s like being down in the trenches, slugging it out but not gaining. When she just undresses in front of me do I just act like I’m not attracted? That seems to send the wrong msg. Like I’ve lost interest. I feel like I should just ask are you in or out? If your in then let’s do this. If your not than I want to move on cause this middle ground , this almost relationship, is tearing me up. I have done GAL more than anybody I know when I was single. I went to Cali for 3 months by myself. Walked, saw, explored, backpacked, hiked. I went to Japan for a month by myself! Walked across the entire country with a Japanese buddy. Backpacked almost 20 miles a day. I’ve seen things none of my friends have. I just don’t enjoy being by myself anymore
Why do I feel so crummy? Ever since the concert and the really good time I’m just down. I don’t know what to do differently. I’m DBing well. If I go sit in front porch to have a drink she comes and sits beside me if I go to the back same. If I go take a shower she will sometimes come into bathroom so we can visit. If I go hang out in bedroom she will come in and lie down on bed so we can chat. She said she was thinking about going swimming at sisters house. Asked if I wanted to. I said no I have things to do. After a while I asked her if she was going she said no. She bases her plans around what I’m going to do.
H I’m going to the farmers market, you wanna go? W sure go grab your coffee and I’ll get ready (She calls when I’m at coffee shop) W I don’t think we should go H well I’m gonna go W ok I’ll go too
Lol. I don’t get it if she doesn’t love me anymore and doesn’t want me. Why does she act like it? It’s not just being cordial. She enjoys being around me. I just don’t get it. Is she confused.
Is it weird I just want to rip the bandaid off. Sigh
Rant over.
Thanks
Just saw your post sandi. Thank you very much for that info. Like a lot. I’m not sure how much non intimate touching I should be doing right now either
