Divorce because I betrayed her trust - I regret it

[DaB35]

She doesn't want to be in the house alone. She has been for 3 months and hates it. It's a big house.
So she wants it sold asap (I hate the fact that our house that we put so much effort in to is going - I hate that she's just casting it aside and not really seemingly thinking aabout what it represents).

So she's asked me to "get the ball rolling." She is also scared the house price value will plummet after Brexit (31 October).

I have done stuff around the house (mow the lawn, washing, cleaning etc.) and she does always thank me for it afterwads, usually a little text.

She was quite a fragile emotional person even though she puts on a 'front' of a real extrovert, life and soul of the party. I think she REALLY needs IC but she is adamant that she doesn't ("I've got my family and friends. I'll be fine."). Stubborn like I said before. She was also lovely and hilarious and was great for me.

She hates porn in any form, and says that me being on these sites and commenting in a vulgar manner on some of the models etc means that I hate women and don't value our marriage and prefer them to her. Weirdly although she has a bit of a potty mouth and jokes about sex all the time, she is quite a prude really. Possibly due to a staunch Christian upbringing and even now my W and her sister have talked about feeling 'guilty' about sex. The family aren't religious at all now. But it clearly has had effects on them.

I'm trying to be pleasant and helpful. She has thanked me for organising the estate agents. I really don't want to as I adore our house. It is such a waste to throw it all away. It was the summation of our 8 years together. Now it'll be a memory.

I went to London with my best friend today. Had a lovely time with him (mate from school, known each other 25 years), and I was distracted for most of the day.