You couldn't be with him every minute of the day Tad. Unfortunately, this is the risk. He wanted to live a life of freedom and he loved you or he wouldn't have kept coming back to you every day. The greatest gift you gave him was letting him live as he wanted and loving him anyway.

I'm sorry buddy this is awful stuff. No words except hugs. xoxoxo

M 20+ T25+
S ~15.5 (BD)
BD 4/6/15
D 12/23/16

"Someone I loved once gave me
A box full of darkness.
It took me years to understand,
That this too, was a gift."
~ Mary Oliver