Midlife wife crisis9

[Wolfman]

Nothing really new to report. Things are moving along. W is suppose to have the appraisal done soon on the home. I just needed a safe place to get these emotions off my chest. I have been at this a year and still being here hurts real bad. I can’t imagine how a mother would want to put her kids through this d when things were really not that bad. I know that’s from my perspective and hers is completely different. But if she were to look at the big picture logically she would have seen these were easy fixes. Just my logical brain at work. I have really come to believe that she is so happy with getting d because now half the time she is free to do what she wants. No more being a mom or wife. It’s sad that someone who expressed to me how important family is has taken this road. How she didn’t even want to try, not even once and making it work. I read on here and I have talked about the “fog”. Is there really one? I have not seen my w even remotely look like she was coming out of it, like I said I really believe she loves this new found freedom. Does that last forever too? I’m sorry I am just hurting today, I really miss my kids when I don’t have them. That’s another thing she is going away for 4 days in a week with her d girlfriends. She said she needs time away, she needs a break. Really?? I have the kids half the time and on those days you go out with your friends. From everyone’s experience do eventually this “party” life get old? Do they at some point say I miss the family dynamic? She actually asked me when she goes away if I want the kids? Seriously?? Those are my kids and love them with all my heart, just because you want to run away and have no More responsibility doesn’t mean I want to. Let’s put it this way too. My Siberian husky is 16. That’s really old for a big dog to live that long. Well she has a little trouble walking on occasion, when she sits for a while it’s hard for her to get up, but once she is up she is fine. My w said the other day, I think we should put her down. I said why, because she can’t always walk, I said she is just slow getting up but once she is up she is fine. She then proceeded to say to me, then you can take care of her. She doesn’t want any responsibility and basically wants to put my dog down because she doesn’t want to take care of it anymore.

I have been hanging out with a lot of friends lately. Just watching the wives with their husband makes me sad. I miss that dynamic I also realize my w wasn’t really like that with me. I see such love between these couples I miss it!! Sorry for the long rambling post but I just needed to get this off my chest. Just feeling depressed today. It’s funny everyone who knows us says one day my w is going to wake up and realize what she had. I hate that comment because I wish she would wake up now!!! So many of my women friends say to me, why would your w at 40 want to go back into the dating scene when she had a great family and life? My response to them always is, I have no idea.