Divorce and Acceptance Part 4

[Pax_luv]

Oh how things shift.
It’s late-around 12:30am and I’m just so exhausted.

Last month, my ex was trying to push this through as quickly as possible. And well... there was no peep.
Finally, they opened up with a settlement offer which is beyond anything comprehensible. I pay him, give him my retirement, he keeps house, all furniture, etc and he’ll let me have the dog 2 days a month.

Obviously that’s bull. But I’m sooo tired. I’m soooo tired of this. I want this over so badly, but I feel like I’ll never get there. I’m not religious but I just have to pray and pray and pray that when this does get in front of the judge, she’ll be reasonable.... because I know we won’t find middle ground on our own.

I know I’m strong, but I can’t take his bullying anymore. Oh my god..... I can’t.
He was actually pleasant to me for 30 seconds the other day. I didn’t read anything positive in it... and now I know why. He is beyond manipulative.

Somebody please smack me with harsh reality and tell me to trust the system and that the court has seen this many times. I have no faith right now.