You did the kind and right thing with Pepper Jack. Love is letting him be free. And he always came by to be with you, so you know he felt safe with you.
I am sorry for the loss of your dear daily companion and friend.
I empathize with the heartache you feel; pets hold a special place in our lives. Remember the two years of happy visits with PJ, and that he and you formed a special bond.
(((Tad)))
DnJ
Feelings are fleeting. Be better, not bitter. Love the person, forgive the sin.