Thank you, unchien. It’s well said and I think it’s good advice. My IC and I have talked about this a lot, and I need to focus on it more. When all this started, I thought that being brave enough to show my love and vulnerability despite my pain would allow him to do the same. It’s been a long, painful road, discovering over and over again that it isn’t the case. I withdrew from that and cycled through trying to be kind/being triggered and getting upset. I may have done too much damage, it may be too late. He may be too scared to ever turn toward me again. I hope that isn’t the case. . But finding my center and being my authentic self, without fear or anger, is still the way. Thank you for your reply, and for sharing in regards to your sitch.
