Journaling~~

I'm looking forward to IC on Wednesday. I hope that they are a good fit for me. I feel emotionally abused by this situation....

I wish I had some answers to why H went about things the way he did.

Why did he leave us?
Why didn't he get the help he said he was going to do?
Why wasn't I enough, why would he put his kids through the same thing he went through.

It just doesn't seem fair.