Barb, DnJ, and Gerda - thanks for your support. I truly don't know where I would be without this forum to vent, journal, or to get advice.
DnJ - My emotions are settling quite a bit, but my stomach is in knots a lot, and I have no appetite. Losing some weight too. It's been tough, I won't lie. I'm having thoughts of hurting and embarrassing H (I've got plenty of ammo), but of course I won't. But, I see your point, and I can do this as a business deal. First up, contacting my financial advisor tomorrow. I won't tell him this now, but he will be losing my business.
Barb - Thanks for the kind words. I'm glad my thoughts are helpful to you. I will follow you more closely too.
Gerda - Thanks for the reminder that God is still watching and working. I needed that reminder today.
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I was greeter at church today with another woman I met once at the women's Christmas party. We could not stop talking. It was great. Anyway, my faith journey came up, and whether I was married. I gave her a brief summary of recent events. She said "Wow. You would never guess you are going through something like that. You are so joyful!".
I told her that yes, I was, and my Faith journey these past months has made me that way. She is not the first person that has said something similar to me. No matter what events are in store for me in the coming days, weeks, months, I am determined to continue to let the love of Christ shine.
