In less than a week I’ll be 50. In a few hours I’ll be heading out for a week celebration. From outside seems that I move on, that I’m ok, please someone handed me the Oscar. I’m crushed, I miss the person that I used to know, I miss him dearly. I already told my friends to do not expect me to shy away from tears if the feeling is overwhelming. I don’t want to be in love with someone who doesn’t exist anymore.
This spoke to me. I'm feeling the same way about mine. Sometimes I think I'm in love with the person I used to know, and discounting the person he's been for the past few years. Sometimes I think I just can't face the future without him-but you know, the future happens anyway, and as my good friend said to me-we only think we are planning-and then life happens.
So enjoy your birthday, Keep walking forward. I will think of you on my walk forward.
Me: 57 H:60 Married: 25 yrs DB #1 June 4/19 "I love you forever" June 14/19 DB#2: June 19/19 ILYBINILWY
