[Georgiabelle]

Hi everyone! I can’t find my last thread so I decided to name it after one of my “fold laundry” songs. I wish the song would fold laundry. :-). My peeps are getting so big....16, 14 and 9. They are doing well and complaining about school. What’s new about that, right?

On my previous thread...wherever it is...I told about my near death experience. I’m doing well. Little rib pain and I will have to have a hernia repaired (cry cry cry...no more surgeries) but I do look stellar in a bikini for an old chick. Seriously. Maybe it’s a confidence thing but I *DO* get lots of make attention-usually the under 35 crowd. And we all know what that is.

Ex Mr GB gets married next month. I admit I am struggling. It’s not wanting to be with him...more mourning the loss of what won’t be and hasn’t been. If I’m being totally honest, it’s weird to think about the person you thought you were going to be with for life is marrying someone else. She’s cool and her first marriage. This is his 3rd. He’s very much a romantic so I wish them well. Her mother wanted me to come to the wedding. I politely declined. Hard pass on that.

Relationship wise? Eh. I date some. I’ll be honest. They are generally extremely physically attractive men in their early to mid 30s. There are no legs to those relationships and I don’t delude myself into thinking they are anything. But I’ve been out with firefighters, basketball players, fitness models, actors, etc. I’m every cliche there is. I would like to have an actual relationship but I’m not sure I’m equipped with the appropriate tools right now. Plus, I would have to meet someone. Self deprecating humor aside, life is pretty good.

I think I’m lonely. My circle is tight. I work and hang out with my kids and ex in-laws. But, I do want something more. Just not sure how to get it.