You can come here day or night and someone is always around. We have walked the path that you are on at this very moment. Some are just beginning and others are much further along and then us, old timers crossed the finished line a while ago and remain here to help others.
Cry, scream, beat the stuffing out of a pillow or whatever works to help you work through the hurt.
Hang in there! You will get through this, but it's going to take some time to do so.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.