I'm definitely trying to not count the days. It's been really difficult, but I'm trying to keep busy. I know that counting the days doesn't benefit myself at all, and 9 days really are not much. It's just such a complete change (albeit a good one). The whole time since she left the house, we've still remained in contact every day. I know and understand now that was a mistake, and was allowing her to keep cake-eating.
I know I have to be OK with letting go. Some days I am, and some days I'm not. I'm trying to make new friends to keep myself busy. I have no family or friends within 3 hours, so it's been mostly phone conversations.
My son comes home this weekend, and I'm nervous, because my wife and I haven't even discussed logistics of him staying where, etc. Previously, when I tried discussing it with her, she blew me off. She's also told him she was coming home at the end of the summer, which I think is setting him up for some heartache.
I know this is what she wants right now, and am trying to respect that. I have read all the links and am currently digging through DR. I know this is a marathon, and it'll take me some time to come to grips. Yesterday was a weak day for me; Continued moving some of her stuff out of sight, and think it was making me emotional. Gonna give that a break for a couple days and just try to focus on GAL this weekend. Just gonna try and have some fun/enjoy some hobbies
