Even though you aren't w/Liz any longer, I am so sorry to hear of Nic's passing. Maybe now....Liz can focus on herself and heal.
Thanks for the update and I hope that you are doing well.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.