I’m feeling emotional right now. Maybe cause I drank too much. I miss my W. But I realize I’m worth having. I’m Worth being loved. I didn’t realize the toll bd takes on your ego. I touched her a bit at show. I put my hand in her back. I grabbed her hand once to lead her around. She didn’t reciprocate but she didn’t pull away either. She was chatty on the way home. She didn’t act bothered by anything I did.
I’ve just had a bit to drink and m venting
I miss her. But I want to let her go at the same time. Sometimes I feel Like it’s all too much. Then I feel strong and like nothing could slow me down. I’ve made a lot of progress. Then sometimes it feels like very little. But more than anything I miss her. She isn’t perfect. We were imperfect together. We filled each other’s gaps I’m sitting on my front porch. Listening to the rain. And my ears are ringing like crazy from the show
I didn’t have expectations. I’m not spiraling. I guess I’m just feeling the pain right now. I’ve done such a good job lately of GAL and detaching. But at this moment. It’s just a bit much. Concerts are our thing. I just miss her damnit
I’m sorry for this rant. But I know if al the people in the world you guys get it. We didn’t have a bad evening. It went just fine. It just wasn’t great. This is just me having a moment I guess
Steve they played Pantera’s old song respect. Singer started crying over loss of Vinnie Paul It was a very good show
